Well, ytd i've a dream. I've no idea issit good or back. Everything flashback to Sec 1 an innocent, naive secondary school student. During that year, i'm happy with my life. My greatest phobia have come back. If some of my friends especially close friends they'll know what happen. Remember what my fcuking step-dad did to me? Yesterday i saw that naked man in the lift, and all stuff come to my mind again. Feeling scared and i'm afraid history will happen again. Why i still can't get through this obstacle. Fcuk! )': Sometimes, i really hate myself. Why must all this happen to me. When i saw that naked man. My memory flashback to the day that bastard did to me.
Sending him a break msg really need lots of courage even though its just a msg. Think for hours and just 1 min ago i've send. To my surprise i didn't cry this time. Never cry for guys. Perhaps, i've grown up. Haha. This few months i'll be busying study, working, and taking care of Gulu's mom. As for relationship, i'll put aside. I don't want to report this and that to my panther instead of my grandmom. It's damn tired. Sometimes still get suspected. Sometimes cry for boyf as he didn't care you. Sometimes quarrel and can't concentrate on study. This few months no playing for me. Study to get good "O" level grades, Working to help my grandmom not so stress up as my expenses is quite expensive. Just one month and i spend $2,000++. Hais. I really don't wanna commit into ''relationship.'' Even i'm in a relationship i'll still neglect my panther. I don't need someone to accompany me @ valentine's day. I can go out with my friends, sister, school friends and family. As valentine day is on the Sunday, i rather go my relative house take Angbao. Isn't it? I'm not like some girl want to celebrate Valentine's day. Waste of time. & guys, "STOP ASKING ME FOR STEAD, I'LL REJECT'' I WANNA ENJOY LIFE.
SOMEONE IS MISSING ME, I KEEP SNEEZE.
