I'm confused now! Should i continue with my studies/wait for next year to go back to school? But if i go back to school, i'll waste one year. Even now, i wanna go back to school. What if i go in? Today, is the last day of submitting the payment for O level and yet i'm clueless. I want to study but i'm afraid of going in. My grandmom/uncle money will go into the drain. Life is so cruel. When i've the chance to study, i don't want to go school but when i wanna go school, things turn bad. One problem to many problem. Urghhh! Now, i don't know whether to call my gandmom anot? I need someone to talk now! I need someone to console me! I need someone to enourage me! I need someone who can make decision for me! The biggest problem now is i don't dare to face my grandmom and uncle. I'm scared i'll lose everything included my beloved grandmom. )':
